KANK

His pain of the past was embibed in the music of KANK. Whenever the music played his hidden pain just bubbled up and all he could do was smile and have a huge grin.

The old scenes of the past replayed in the front of his eyes. Flashback.

Those painful days when life was different than now. His yearnings for her, she being indifferent to him, ignorant of his existence despite being in the same house.

Every scene and dialogue of KANK reminded him of his past. As if the movie was made for him. Just that the names were different, the soul of characters were same.

A whizzling amount of current ran through his body when he heard any music or dialogue from that movie. It was so etched deep in his senses and existence. Perhaps too deep.

Some corelations never fade out. Never ever. Just never.

KANK

His pain of the past was embibed in the music of KANK. Whenever the music played his hidden pain just bubbled up and all he could do was smile and have a huge grin.

The old scenes of the past replayed in the front of his eyes. Flashback.

Those painful days when life was different than now. His yearnings for her, she being indifferent to him, ignorant of his existence despite being in the same house.

Every scene and dialogue of KANK reminded him of his past. As if the movie was made for him. Just that the names were different, the soul of characters were same.

A whizzling amount of current ran through his body when he heard any music or dialogue from that movie. It was so etched deep in his senses and existence. Perhaps too deep.

Some corelations never fade out. Never ever. Just never.

Livin without you.

Wasnt it passionate ? Wasn't it heart rendering ? Wasnt it overwhelming for you ? Wasnt it a moment when you and me (I dread using word we now) wished time paused and both could live in the audacity of the effervescent tender affection ?Yes I do relive those moments yet when I know there is no hope and when I know we are past each other. When I get extremely remorse and sadist remembering you, I relive those moments and just feel you besides me. Wonder how I would live on years without you when we had pledged there would be very few years that we would live without each other, but now most of the years we have to live without each other.

Livin without you.

Wasnt it passionate ? Wasn't it heart rendering ? Wasnt it overwhelming for you ? Wasnt it a moment when you and me (I dread using word we now) wished time paused and both could live in the audacity of the effervescent tender affection ?Yes I do relive those moments yet when I know there is no hope and when I know we are past each other. When I get extremely remorse and sadist remembering you, I relive those moments and just feel you besides me. Wonder how I would live on years without you when we had pledged there would be very few years that we would live without each other, but now most of the years we have to live without each other.

Parting Note

Oh yeah ? Thought hard ? Cried ? You needed me ? Really ?

Stop calling me a guilty man. You shooed me away whenever I tried speaking to you. You shut the door on me when I tried manaofying you. You quit me in a phase which was the most beautiful phase of our lives. You were not strong enough to confront the realities that you didnt have in it urself to last a relationship for life.

You knew I would always love you for all your follies, for all your mistakes. Good dayys, bad days, when you would have money, no money every good bad weather.

You basically were not meant for me. You were inferior to me. My love blinded me. I couldnt see your infidelity. I trusted you. You took grave advantage of this situation. I couldnt see your excuses. I could not see you spending time with the other man. You had the audacity to call me a cheat. When you cheated on me, when you couldnt solemnise the vows you took, you blamed me for your failure.

You would never have content life. You would suffer the same consequences when you go to Pan what I suffered with you. I shall recover but what abt you. You wont even be able to stand up....I pity you. I feel sorry for you.

Parting Note

Oh yeah ? Thought hard ? Cried ? You needed me ? Really ?

Stop calling me a guilty man. You shooed me away whenever I tried speaking to you. You shut the door on me when I tried manaofying you. You quit me in a phase which was the most beautiful phase of our lives. You were not strong enough to confront the realities that you didnt have in it urself to last a relationship for life.

You knew I would always love you for all your follies, for all your mistakes. Good dayys, bad days, when you would have money, no money every good bad weather.

You basically were not meant for me. You were inferior to me. My love blinded me. I couldnt see your infidelity. I trusted you. You took grave advantage of this situation. I couldnt see your excuses. I could not see you spending time with the other man. You had the audacity to call me a cheat. When you cheated on me, when you couldnt solemnise the vows you took, you blamed me for your failure.

You would never have content life. You would suffer the same consequences when you go to Pan what I suffered with you. I shall recover but what abt you. You wont even be able to stand up....I pity you. I feel sorry for you.

Unanswered questions...

"Yeh dil ka dard he ki jaata nahi hai. "

"Damn the love sucks. Why does it happen that you dont end up being loved despite giving your everything to her?

"Why does every fibre of mine is a dictionary of your sentiments"

"Why do you spark a fire within me? Why is your spirit so sublime ?"

"Why every glimmer in my eye speaks of you and your dreams"

"Why every sprinkle of your kiss makes me remininsce that twilight ?"

"Why every iota of my flesh drowns in your gleaming passion?"

"Why every damn tapestry of my life is an emodiment of your imprint on my life"?

He had this questions for Anky, but unfortunately had no answers. He had lost. He had pains for life. Dil da dard. He loved Anky day in and day out. Selflessly, for her, for him. He had a world of his own. With her. But that had collapsed. And it was hell of tough for him to come out.

He kept saying dont quit me, but she quit.

Unanswered questions...

"Yeh dil ka dard he ki jaata nahi hai. "

"Damn the love sucks. Why does it happen that you dont end up being loved despite giving your everything to her?

"Why does every fibre of mine is a dictionary of your sentiments"

"Why do you spark a fire within me? Why is your spirit so sublime ?"

"Why every glimmer in my eye speaks of you and your dreams"

"Why every sprinkle of your kiss makes me remininsce that twilight ?"

"Why every iota of my flesh drowns in your gleaming passion?"

"Why every damn tapestry of my life is an emodiment of your imprint on my life"?

He had this questions for Anky, but unfortunately had no answers. He had lost. He had pains for life. Dil da dard. He loved Anky day in and day out. Selflessly, for her, for him. He had a world of his own. With her. But that had collapsed. And it was hell of tough for him to come out.

He kept saying dont quit me, but she quit.

Helpless

Jimmy was losing his sleep over Anky, his pretty 26 year old wife. She was getting drawn towards Pan, her colleague in her workplace. His every effort to stop her was futile. He didnt want to quit the relationship, but he had very little options left. He was stunned when he saw KANK with her in their good times. She had rubbished the movie, he had believed his life went the Abhishek Bachchan way.

She just didnt love him despite him being committed fully to Anky. It just stumped him. He once had a thought to grab Pan and thrash him left, right and center. He knew it wont work.

He was seeing his marriage crumble to an illicit illegal individual who was hell bent to take Anky away from him.

Helpless

Jimmy was losing his sleep over Anky, his pretty 26 year old wife. She was getting drawn towards Pan, her colleague in her workplace. His every effort to stop her was futile. He didnt want to quit the relationship, but he had very little options left. He was stunned when he saw KANK with her in their good times. She had rubbished the movie, he had believed his life went the Abhishek Bachchan way.

She just didnt love him despite him being committed fully to Anky. It just stumped him. He once had a thought to grab Pan and thrash him left, right and center. He knew it wont work.

He was seeing his marriage crumble to an illicit illegal individual who was hell bent to take Anky away from him.

The Phone Call

He just typed in a message on his cell phone and send it off to her

"Hey I know your hubby is idiot and you aint happy livin wid him. Can you be friends with me. I am sure you would be better off without him"

Few moments later he got a call on his cell from her office.

"I know who you are. Just stop troubling her. Okay."

After the caller cut off the phone, he was a happy man. He laughed monsterous. He just had got confirmation that his wife was in love with Pankaj, the caller, and was cheating on him. Good enough evidence to quit her and dump her.

The Phone Call

He just typed in a message on his cell phone and send it off to her

"Hey I know your hubby is idiot and you aint happy livin wid him. Can you be friends with me. I am sure you would be better off without him"

Few moments later he got a call on his cell from her office.

"I know who you are. Just stop troubling her. Okay."

After the caller cut off the phone, he was a happy man. He laughed monsterous. He just had got confirmation that his wife was in love with Pankaj, the caller, and was cheating on him. Good enough evidence to quit her and dump her.

Wedding Gift

April bumped into December after 5 years in a New York Starbucks cafe. First time since they broke up.

"April, I always wanted to give you this book. But i couldnt just give it to you. No excuse for this. Its inexcusable"

Silent for few moments "Dec, go away please"

The book was the last thing Dec had that reminded him of April. The book was the gift from her dad to April when she got married to Dec.

Wedding Gift

April bumped into December after 5 years in a New York Starbucks cafe. First time since they broke up.

"April, I always wanted to give you this book. But i couldnt just give it to you. No excuse for this. Its inexcusable"

Silent for few moments "Dec, go away please"

The book was the last thing Dec had that reminded him of April. The book was the gift from her dad to April when she got married to Dec.