You!!

Edited To Add : Hey, I just created new blog exclusively for 55 Fiction. You can find that right here. Started with the first post. Please check it out and do comment to let me know how good or bad the fiction are. After initial reluctance, I got in to the 55 F revolution few days back and I find it addictive. Yenjai the 55 F as you do this one..

I’ve never known
a love like yours
Nor thought it could be true,
But every time I kiss your lips

I feel what love can do
With hair like silk
And lips so tender,
Each moment with you
Makes my heart surrender

I couldn’t live,
I couldn’t breathe
Without you by my side,
Never will I let you go,

My love will never hide
And in my heart you’ll always be
From now until forever,
No matter what, no matter where
We’ll always be together

You’re the thought that starts each morning,
The conclusion to each day.
You are in all that I do,
And everything I say

You are all I’ve wanted,
You are all I need
You are all I’ve dreamed of
You are all of this to me.

Friday Rants.

I sit in my cubicle right now with a writer’s block occupying me strangely and strongly. I have had this feeling since so many days now. I have ran out of steam to write. This days the posts are more spur of the moment types than pre-planned ones. Watching twilight, came across a dialogue or a situation that caught my eye, a post followed. 2 of my this week’s posts have been based on Twilight, the wonderful movie on a wonderful novel. This days or say months I have been neck deep into Twilight and Bella, Edward have appealed me to no end. That is, I live twilight day in and day out. You could see the playlist at the left of the blog containing Twilight OST and movie shots. I have finished the book and already purchased the next 2 books on the series “New Moon” and “Eclipse”. Started with the “New Moon” yesterday. Bella in the movie looked damn sweet and cute (Kristen Stewart).

My life is pretty ordinary right now. No highs or lows. Mood swings are more frequent. 2 days since I was in a kind of low mood. Fumbled 2 times in 2 days, once in way to catch the bus across the bus terminal. Close to 400 people saw me tumbling down the walkway. I got up on my own with eyes wide open and kept walking, it hurt later on. I was more busy chatting with her on Mobile. And then next day I fumbled again in the bus this time over a seat luckily not over the lady seated there. You could imagine what would have happened to me.

My gym workouts have been irregular. 3 out of last 8 days I have worked out in gym. 2 days I haven’t gone cos I was too sour to go and further stiffen up my body. My weight is a thing of concern and I m trying to take steps to control and reduce it. First of that is to give up the chicken diet for few weeks. Tough, but inevitable. Last few days I was excited on prospects of a relationship coming to an existence, but it fizzed out soon. Story of my life. Fanfare, excitement, one stupid act and everything finishes off. I was committed not to make that happen this time, but it did happen. I should prolly understand that everything takes its own time and if this has to work out, I would need to have patience and ensure I don’t do any foolish act. Anyways let’s see. If it has to work out, it will, else it won’t whatever I do. I biked around today to office. Gives me a high when I ride my bike. Greatest way to de-stress.

My friends ask me why don’t you have a car? I said I can have it the moment I want to, but I won’t have it right now. Reason being an uncertainty. I don’t know where my next assignment would take me. If it’s here, then no probs, if its outside Pune, then well I am not prepared to buy the car, use it for few days and then sell off or send off to my home. Plus it’s a disgusting experience to take a car in Pune. Last year in space of 4 months, I had to cancel the booking 2 times. Can you imagine it? Once it was on my birthday. I am bit conservative when it takes to buying big things. Lot of inertia and lot of thought process, maddening at times, goes beyond it. I got to be fully convinced that it’s going to be of some real use to me. Recession times make it hard for me to spend close to 10k a month on car including maintenance (minimal right now), EMIs and petrol / diesel cost.

There has been sort of a misunderstanding between me and one of my close persons. I find this strange. I wish to reach out to the kid and solve this one out. It serves no purpose. I see this as misunderstanding. I don’t know how he sees it. Perspectives and perceptions should match here. Most often they don’t match and the resultant out of it is the misunderstanding. One of my cousins and me had a sort of misunderstandings ever since we were kids (born 7 months apart from each other) and were tough competitors in school. It took years for us to get rid of those cold vibes and when we got rid of those vibes we were closest ones. We still are. We discussed everything in and out, the most favorite topics of ours – relationships, politics (we both support same ideology and the party) and of course the cricket. When he was in Pune before and after his marriage, I was closest one to him. We went home together (1.5 kms apart in Indore) and came back together. When he was married and days before flying to Chicago, where he is based currently, I spent a quality time with him and his wife. Movies together on the weekends, hours spent in weekend brunch (lunch / dinner) and then revoking the older memories of school and college ending up in laughters and nostalgia. When I was in dumps 2 years back, he helped me out of it and was the only person I confided in with almost everything after my 1^st blog.

Lunch time for me now. It’s going to be Subway or a Chinese meal for me today. Geared up for counting tomorrow.

Have a Happy Friday and a rocking weekend ahead guys. Signing off for now.

55 word fiction

He was watching her from the sidelines in the ball room. She was dancing with Phil, her school mate. A cringe ran through Matt's body. He twisted. Bella could sense her man's discomfort. She was meeting Phil, her past, after years together.

When song stopped playing, Matt went near Phil and Bella. Phil gasped for breath and removed his hand off Bella's waist.

"Hey Phil, thanks mate. I will take it from here". He filled Bella in his arms before next song on prom began to play.

Hey will you read this blog and rate it ?

We blog, we rant. We are cos we blog. Aint it true ? Blog is a daily routine. A daily form of existence. A life beyond obvious. Ah well thats my bloggie URL. Place to heal, chill out, chin up and socialise. Get dug friends and enemies(less though).

Most of us are single and many of us are aspirants. Aspirants to be a couple. Many of us are already there. Many of us would again be a couple(breakup n stuff like that). But one thing would still be there. We would still blog. Or say we would have blog still.

Question i am gonna pop up is how many people within your close circle do you share your blog with? Your parents, siblings, cousins and friends? Those from IT, with the peers and jokers (read managers) from workplace? And if you do share, then do you get the feeling of being judged when you write a post that may be rant or a bad experience or a bold idea? Do you feel that may be you would be questioned or people would see you in different light? May be they wouldnt have known the bloggoer out of you? I mean you write up a post on say live-ins or a lovely love dove poem and next day you walk up proudly in your cubicle and your readers are like "Whaaaat did you write mate? Are you same who wrote this?" and their mouth wud be open for so long that u d wish u cud stuff some cotton in it to prevent them from speakin further. Ditto for the college friends (those who are in heaven called college)

Now if you are married or have a girl / boy friend (straight relationships) would you share your blog with him / her? Or would he / she even have an air of thought that this lad / lado has a thing called blog? If you love your partner bhery bhery mush then no qualms in sharing with him / her but say you have got an arranged shadi then wud u still do it? If you share some not so good experience on ur blog and he / in-laws read what wud happen? Same for she / in-laws?

Questions that wud put u thinkin. I want you to think. Put on thinking caps. Hats or topis. Thinking scarfs too. Oh I love scarfs. Dont wear it myself (oodi baba never), but those who wear it. Ok back to the topic, what about me? I would not answer the above questions totally but in short something like this:

"if i fall in love with a blogger then i would certainly have shared my blog with her. So she would know my blog posts and a kind of understanding would have been there. May be we would also write about each other on our blogs. Daily experiences, weekend getaways and stuff like that. I have seen many such blogs and i love them. Only blogs,not their owners.

I dont share my blog with folks or my workplace peers. Not certainly with my managers who are dumb and jack asses."

What do you think? Tell tell tello me.