Monday, January 25, 2010

Talks in the night

The night talks are fun. At times you fight on it,at times you talk too intensely good enough to have her scream in pleasure.


When there are fights in the night, the world seems so cruel. But when the things are other way round, there is a feeling to have the world and time stop and stand still in the awe of those moments. 


Precisely this are those moments which make this feeling the way it is. The build up to the big day is going good with the things falling in place the way they should.


S and S. Nice pair.


In words of Bryan Adams, cant stop the thing we started.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Back!!


Alright I m back. Away from net, away from blogs and not online for how many days ? 9 days in all. Biggest in the recent documented memory of mine.

Itching to write on something.

In transit, winds of change in my life.

Big day 33 days away. Going to meet her this weekend amidst her super conservative family and her huge dog.

And gifting her with something girls always like to keep in hands. Gee guess  what ?

Monday, January 4, 2010

Winds of Change have been blocked


They say that everything happens for good. I dont know what to say on this. After a long fight put on to stay back there, I am back to the country and trust me I find myself changed.

I have not had very good experiences being back right from the onset. Mediocrity is the middle name of this country. Its weird and ridiculous.

Fogs cancel the flight and the miffed passengers take the crew to hostage.  Few trains crash and the news channels cry foul if the Railways are blind in the fog. What shit ? The media thrives on this scum coverage of events.

This days there is a new activism going on in and around the media and the  blogs.  Justice for Ruchika.  Did any of us know about the case all this decade and half ? Where was the media then and all this while ? There have been so many incidents like Ruchika in last decade. What happened ? Any body got convicted? 

One alive terrorist is mocking the entire country and we the taxpayers are slogging out to enable the government to keep him alive only to see later getting escaped or a repeat of IC-814 hijack (does anybody remember this at the onset of 2000?)

My point is what is this all going to achieve ? Nothing unless system changes and nothing until the people who make the system change want to change.  One failed terrorist attack in Detroit bound plane on Christmas day and entire system of airline security in US is revamped. Its not even 10 days since then.  Everybody is held accountable at some level up there. Whats here ? A 86 year old governor is caught LIVE making up and then cries foul over controversy.  High ideals anyone ?

When you are back, you lose all your independence. We in this country have to fake independence by posing ourselves as pro-women or pro-men. Back there, all this doesnt matter. Every body respects the other person's independence and privacy. Be it a white American or an African American or a Confused Desi or even a rogue Makkhu (Mexican) who cleans the snow.  There the daily life goes on in snow, blizzards and storms. Right here at 5 degrees everything shuts down. Loss of productivity anyone ?

We keep crying foul on anything American on the name of our rich culture and "sanskaar".  And clinging to those values which matter hardly in the 2010 make us feel safe that nothing is going to affect us. Wow.  What a country.  Everything has to be full of emotions here. Sentiments rule large. Politics in everything. Dragging the feet back. Clipping the wings of those who want to progress well is the story of this country. And thats the difference between India and America. And thats difference is never going to be bridged.

We are a coward society. We are feudal and medivel mindset people. 

This a typical pro American post from a person who has just tasted what the flavor of america is and is miffed to find mediocricy(ty) here.

Eggs and tomatoes anyone for me ? The only pre-condition is they should be hybrid.

2010, a year of change for me. Riddances from the past patterns and mighty steps to the life I want to live. Cos its now or never. I chose NOW.

Thursday, December 31, 2009

2010 is on

iPhone, HP 17" laptop, deals2Buy, Best Buy, Kohl's,  Dulles, Dubai,  Hartford,  frustration, America, Lexis Nexis, Aetna, Infosys, Middletown, Blogs, travel to America, almost thrown out of the job,  lying low, on the bench, transition to the new age, relationship formalized,  SS, blog woes, working like hell, late nights, gave up on beer, desparate for good peaceful times, nagging managers, ridiculous team members, arguments,  a very helping room mate, blog interview, Arm Ball, 55 Fiction, Bajaj Pulsar

2010 is on and hope this is best one for me in years.  And best of all of us, country and of course.

Amen,

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

2009 in a disappointing end


The 2009 ends in a disappointment that I could not get what I aspired for in entirety. I was able to quash the bad reputation tagged against me since the onset of the year, but not totally.

In the end i can draw comfort feel that I was honest and committed to everything I did. Career was most important aspect for me in 2009 and would be in 2010.  I delivered a project in style with good feedback from the client and others. Offshore team remained nagging and a pain in the S.

In the end going back for what is called biggest thing may not be best thing to do when you come to know that the person involved actually does not care about the plans or an open talk with you over the things ahead. And thats when you feel lost, feel WHAT ?

Anyways the disappointment is always going to be there and big question marks going to the fire ring.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Notice : Blog closed


The old blog woes seem to have returned back. I am not sure who is reading my entire Razmatazz Blog, just to be sure that its not used against me and it remains sane and sacred, I have closed it for a while.

Unusual activity on the blog from 2 IP addresses, dunno if the reader is a fan or a crook with evil intentions.

Notice : Blog closed


The old blog woes seem to have returned back. I am not sure who is reading my entire Razmatazz Blog, just to be sure that its not used against me and it remains sane and sacred, I have closed it for a while.

Unusual activity on the blog from 2 IP addresses, dunno if the reader is a fan or a crook with evil intentions.

Monday, December 28, 2009

Favor needed

A humble request to you guys to just wish that what I want now is granted to me. Prayers, wishes, luck needed.  And the ETA (expected time of finish) is 12/30.

Want to end the 2009 with a pleasent news of getting the most desired thing right now.  Please if you could pray for me in a positive way or wish me some good luck then I'd owe gratitude for you guys.

Need luck, assertion, power and convincing right now.

Please let me get what I deserve (I deserve good things NOW) thats my prayer to the supreme ALMIGHTY above.

Friday, December 25, 2009

Anniversary

Christmas time. 


12.25.05. 


An alliance supposed to be divine and long for the importance of the day it was fixed, the relationship that was supposed to last lives, it just fell apart by the next Christmas. 


A and S could never get along, not then, not now and never again. 


That was supposed to be doomed. And doomed it was.  4 years on, the voices were not recognizable when at a time the voice would suggest how good  the mood was or the feelings of the other person were. That was this kind of depth in first few months. 


4 years on both have moved on. What's not moved on are the silhouettes and  the painful memoirs of the past. The worst being the two pink hankies.

Anniversary

Christmas time. 


12.25.05. 


An alliance supposed to be divine and long for the importance of the day it was fixed, the relationship that was supposed to last lives, it just fell apart by the next Christmas. 


A and S could never get along, not then, not now and never again. 


That was supposed to be doomed. And doomed it was.  4 years on, the voices were not recognizable when at a time the voice would suggest how good  the mood was or the feelings of the other person were. That was this kind of depth in first few months. 


4 years on both have moved on. What's not moved on are the silhouettes and  the painful memoirs of the past. The worst being the two pink hankies.