Living on the edge

Updates: The gloom and tension continued for 2nd day in row. I got a shocking news that one of my colleagues in my erstwhile team was laid off. I was uncharacterstically low and words didnt come out of me. Every phone call made me more apprehensive and i just wished that it didnt mean bad stuff. It didnt. Perhaps i need to get over it now and show my best attitude in the work as is the need. I didnt have bad attitude in the previous project but working day in and day out for 17 hrs in row for 4 months would make anybody edgy and irritating cos there is no respite. I have no words to explain the situation I am in. I just wish if you guys could realize it. i hope you dont make mock of it and dont make fun of it. If you could help me out reach out to me with soothing words. They would do the best of help to me. Thats what i need right now. I have been too individualistic in past, but this situation warrants that i reach out to my friends and no body can do it more better than you guys.

I cant disclose this to my close ones as it would mean pressure and tension. So i share it out here. I have been out of hell. I love my organization, i love every bit of it. But i dont mince words to call the previous unit as the worst and unhuman. They are vampires and i m lucky to be out of it. Your help would mean a great deal and I would be in awe of you guys. Its a humble and sincere request to help me heal out of this horrendous and extremely disappointing situation for me.

Tension is in there. The figures just came in and they were shockingly dissappointing. The Q4 results. There are going to be job cuts. I just wish I am through this tough phase. Last 2 days, i have lived the horror. The simmering hot feeling is making me uneasy. Gotta hang in and do the best to survive. Its that tough now and is like walking on slender thread which can be cut off any time.

BTW I got free of the whacky assignment i was in for last 5 months and for next few days its going to be healing time out of the scars i got from that project. I have already begun the recovery process and started lookin back for lost life and soul. Anybody who can give me some tips to find are welcome. A century beckons and going by the past trend, the future of this blog seems to be in danger.